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♥ Tuesday, January 31 ♥
its friggin 3 am and i'm not in bed.just cant get to sleep.. just keep thinking. and the sharp pain in my stomach is keepin me wide awake. its like driving a knife into your stomach.. feeling damn lousy.. and damn it, i just realised i'm laggin behind. Lydia is going to uni in Aug, Eunice is in Rjc this year.. and by the time she graduates in 2007. and goes to uni in 2008.. i'll still be stuck in poly... or maybe not.. but still....*&^%$&^$$#%$#*^%^...... i've should have gone to a damn Jc, and screw my thoughts on not wanting to study so hard.. URGGGGGGggggggg... ok nevermind.what's done is done.... $^$#$@^&  left her thoughts ♥ 3:17:00 AM
♥ Monday, January 30 ♥
today's chu er...somehow,i'm not in the mood for cny. not sure why. but i just do.. and that lil' boy is sick too. poor him... hope he'll get well soon.. =0 left her thoughts ♥ 10:54:00 AM
♥ Saturday, January 28 ♥
well..Cny is tomorrow, i think i can celebrate it without worrying.. what bad thoughts can i possibly have?? now that i have everything a girl could ever want.. i've got the greatest baby ever.. i've got him to acccompany me.. i've got him to love.. and him to love me.... =) this is the best gift i can ever have.. =) oh, and i've got 83% for my last stats test.. i'm sooo soooo happy... how i wish i could drag that f**ked up old B*tch.. and throw my test paper right at her face, or maybe stuff it into her mouth... so much for being a tutor.. screwed up tutor.. the school should just dump her in the drain.. thats for asking my friend to CRAWL under the table.. and for calling my classmate a PRISONER.... a freaking CRIMINAL... just because he was late for class... go screw your ass B*tch... i hate you.. in fact... the WHOLE class HATES you... so why not just dismiss yourself from school.. it'd do ALL the students good ... okie.. i'm happy now... i've vent my anger... =) i'm done.. left her thoughts ♥ 4:57:00 PM
♥ Tuesday, January 24 ♥
tests tests , projects projects...just kill me please.... its driving me nutties... gimme a break will you??? arghsss.... well,one thing i can look forward to.. to finish up my test,so i can meet my baby..... =) somethin so very positive.. baby, i'm sorry for some things that i've done.. dont be mad at me ok? promise that nothing like that will happen again.... i promiseeeeee............. i've decided to let it go... for the better....... i'm not gonna dwell on it anymore.. promisee.. its a new beginning for you and i.. i guess i shouldnt have made it into sucha big issue in the first place.. -tugss- i'm sorry,its time tt it should stop... left her thoughts ♥ 11:31:00 PM
♥ Saturday, January 21 ♥
just had another bigg squabble with him...he's sleeping soundly now, sighs... i love him so god-dang much... i just don't know what to do when we quarrel... somehow, i really wish there's somethin that i can do to stop the petty squabbles. but,one thing i'm thankful for, i'm glad we all got over it after a while.. and we're happy once again... i love you i love you i love you.. there's no end in sayin i love you. you know how i feel.. so its a zillion trillion times more then this... and its true..... it is baby... left her thoughts ♥ 3:19:00 AM
♥ Thursday, January 19 ♥
i'm not the best,i cant be...i don't know why,but i just am.. sometimes i really feel like an idiot living in this world.. some insignificant little fly... buzzing here and there.... so what am i doing here?? had a longg thought on the way home, looked around,and observed quitely.. people around me looked so happy.. but why cant i feel happy bout myself too?? i don't know why,i just cant. sometimes i think i love myself,but sometimes i don't.. sometimes i even detest the sight of me.... don't know why,but it just keeps on probbing me.. sometimes i wished i could break free from my body.. perhaps that way,i'm so much better of without this body of mine.. i just hate it so much...... left her thoughts ♥ 4:50:00 PM
♥ Tuesday, January 17 ♥
life have been pretty much great for me these days..there's nothin for me to complain about. went to 'baby's' house to help his mum bake pineapple tartttiess.. turned out fine...and delicious of course... and 'baby' came over to help my mum fixed the computer.. hmm...its just like having a new computer.. and 'baby' being the smart one made everythin so right... he fixed it all... am so greatful.and mum loves him to bitss... kinda like stayed over to fixed the computer. anyway,we bought two new guniea babies.. cookies and patch... sucha adorable pair... so cute.... they just make you melt right on the spot... chinese new year is just around the corner.. MONEY MONEY MONEY!!!!!..... -evil laughter-.... whahahahahahahahahahaha.................. left her thoughts ♥ 2:29:00 PM
♥ Sunday, January 8 ♥
silly lil baby..your silly moves... you never fail to put a smile on my face.. and you always know how to get to my heart.. and i'd melt to a puddle,just when you smile at me.. you're sucha bundle of joy... the joy in my life... silly lil baby.. your cheeky smile, and your soft chuckle.. your lame jokes... its you who make it all so worth while... i love you babe... and i always will.. left her thoughts ♥ 11:15:00 PM
♥ Friday, January 6 ♥
Am I not Pretty Enough??Am I not pretty enough? Is my heart too broken Do I cry too much? Am I too outspoken Don't I make you laugh? Should I try it harder Why do you see right through me? I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break I crave, I love, I've waited long enough I try as hard as I can Am I not pretty enough? Is my heart too broken Do I cry too much? Am I too outspoken Don't I make you laugh? Should I try it harder? Why do you see right through me? I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's real I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees, I hope, I stand, I take it like a man I try as hard as I can. Am I not pretty enough? Is my heart too broken? Do I cry too much? Am I too outspoken? Don't I make you laugh? Should I try it harder? Why do you see right through me? Why do you see, why do you see? Why do you see right through me? Why do you see, why do you see? Why do you see right through me? Why do you see, why do you see? Why do you see right through me? Why do you see, why do you see? Why do you see right through me? left her thoughts ♥ 8:37:00 AM
♥ Wednesday, January 4 ♥
went to *grace's* house in the afternoon..was gonna study Macroeconomics, but i guess we didnt really study in the end... poor dearie.. still pretty upset... but i tried to cheer her up a lil... poor girl.. breakin up isnt easy to get over. it hurts like crap,and it leaves you feelin awfully miserable.. been there,done that.. but cryin was all i could do,to take the pain away.. stay strong.. time will heal.. my dear girl, God'll be here for you,just like he was for me.. and i'm here too.. i guess if it wasnt for you and han han, i wouldnt be alive now,and i wouldnt have found my happiness now... so my girl,i'm here.. always.... left her thoughts ♥ 11:00:00 PM
♥ Monday, January 2 ♥
sighs..been a lil cranky today.. guess too much -Desperate Housewives- is makin me desperate too.. desperate for something exciting. hmm... kinda sick of living here.. there's nothin new to look forward to.... waking up to the same old feeling, knowing that the day is just the same old routine.. dull,life-less...boring... same old weather everyday... there's nothing special to spice up the day.. sighs.. cant we like have a lil snow here.... its a new year... but its only the start of the year and i'm beginning to dread it so much.. arh... great...i'm being pessimistic again... urgh.... i'll leave it then.... left her thoughts ♥ 8:03:00 PM
♥ Sunday, January 1 ♥
yest was an awesome day..i ended 2005 with a smile(smiling at baby), and i started 2006 with a smile too... :)(smiling at baby again)... we spent our day at the -Zoo-... yes,the ZOO... thou it was kinda expensive, but it was a rather interesting day.. made sandwiches for the both of us in the morning and 'baby' came over to eat.. we touched a Lema... billy-goat.. and one goat kinda stepped on me because i was eating bread.. me and baby had a hard time tryin to make the nanny-goat leave.. it almost climbed baby's lap...but it climbed mine instead...heh.. we touched lil ponies...horsey.. baby fed a baby and a mother mouse deer...soooo cutee... well..we were pretty happy even thou it rained a lil... but nothing could spoil our fun.. =) after the -Zoo- we headed down to J8 to catch a movie.. -Wallace and Gromit-....super hilarious show... baby enjoyed the movie.. and he came over for dinner... =) wished each other a happy new year... =) i'm so glad i ended 2005 with him,and started my year with him too... i really hope that 2006 will be a better year for me and baby.. not that 2005 wasnt good.. but if things could be even better...Y not??? =) baby, thank you so much for the joy you've brought to me.. i'm so glad i found you, and the time spent with you,so magical and precious.. i really could not ask for more.. cause you're already the best... and i mean the Best... i love you my sweetie pie..... left her thoughts ♥ 5:35:00 AM
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